I am forever curious, yet seem to be so endlessly distractable that I don't take the time to actually take in what I'm surrounded by.
My curiosities light up like little sparkles of light in the night sky, but before I can get close enough to focus on one, another one lights up, and I start moving towards that one. I never reach either one, and suddenly I'm constantly seeking knowledge, but never truly knowing anything.
I get inspired, I want to draw dragons, and sunlight and autumn crunchiness. But then I'm forced to realize that I love these things, am surrounded by them, but never actually notice what they look like. How to capture their form? I don't even know what I believe them to truly look like. I'll start by drawing the dragon's head...but...what dragon's head? Is it angular, feline, clipped jaws, have whiskers, a pug nose, steam/gas, fangs?
Nature changes around me, welcomes me as I skip through it, a whirlwind always trying to catch what's just ahead. A carrot on a stick. But I don't actually notice what it's doing. What happens in an Australian winter? What are our animals doing? What kind of energy is swirling around me? In the northern hemisphere, winter is dead, things go to bed, the world sleeps. Australia...the frogs welcome the rain with their joyous calls, the grass shines green, magnified a thousand times through the faceted rain droplets. That is not sleep, that is the world coming alive, the earth's blood dripping down, renewing her life.
So, it's simple. I need to really go out and look, take some time each day to let my curiosities actually come back with facts, before whisking my attention to the next loudest curiosity child. Sitting out in nature, watching how lighting truly works, listen to what people really say. Note it down so it forces me to focus!
I need to do my own research. What do I want to know? What do I love that I'm not actually paying enough attention to? What should I love that I'm not paying attention to?
Curiosity is a driving force, I've just got to take the reigns so I can explore.
Curiosity may have killed the cat, but, satisfaction truly will bring it back.
